Change

Today... was a hard day.
Today I did not have a beautiful rehearsal to look forward to, I do not feel an anticipation for the year to come. I can not make plans for myself and my friends. My plans are my own.
Today I did not go out for a lovely walk under the stars, I did not share a delicious cup of hot cocoa. I did not eat fast food on a random craving.
Today I did not pour out my heart to my heart. I did not turn a page in my emotions and my maturity.

Today... was a much better day.
Today I healed my heart, rather than broke it. I raked through truths, rather than lived in lies.
Today I cried with a friend, I laughed with a friend. I let our hearts break together. We let ourselves say goodbye together.
Today I collected pieces of my life, rather than create more pieces to collect.


A lot can change in a year. A lot has changed in a year. To look back to this day in that year, it has a different feel. I know that this day in the year to come will be a day that I will have to embrace as the plans for that day can't be fathomed.
So much can change in a year, I know that changes that have passed can't stand beside the changes to come.

All that change is, all that change is going to be.. Yet somethings really will never change, Somethings I hope never change. Somethings I know I will look back on break when I see they have changed.



I can't fathom change. I can't wait for change. I can't look to change. I can't resist change.
Change is coming, Change is in the air.