Falling

You're walking on a tightrope, an emotional tightrope, a physical metaphorical tightrope. Every feeling you have is so thin. You feel worthless and lame, you're a box or spirals, each individual and intricate, yet you're just a box, simple and boring, taking up far more empty space than you need to. You get the feeling in the depth of you the you're supposed to be far more than that, but you can't break past that thick boxy shell. You push yourself, doing far more than time allows, yet you feel as though you're not doing nearly enough. You feel like people who look at you can't see you, they can't feel what they need to feel to understand. Your tightrope is thin and about to snap. How lonely you'll feel as you're falling. Falling..